Hello my friends - I have decided to check in after a long time for the following reason: I have had the urge to write but my life has yet to gain the stability I want it to have. The past three months have been very different - almost monotonous in their diversity - in that every day something different happens.
And I'm bored of it.
It is strange - I'm living a life now whereby everyday has some new challenge, some new thing to learn...and I've found that I've got a certain capacity for it as well. Over the past few days, I've tried to actually make each day somewhat similar, just for some relief - and even then, it doesn't work out. There is always something to do - be it a lecture on something or needing to pick up my shirts from the ironwalla. Since I've moved into my new place in Bandra, there have been only five or six instances where I've gone straight home from work.
You may ask, quite reasonably, why this is a problem. It is an issue because I cannot plan to do anything now - if I wanted to take up some course, I don't know if I'd be able to commit. I haven't been able to read any of my books for a while now. I wanted to re-start my bible study. I want to get to a net café and download all my podcasts...these are a few of the things I want to do, but just cannot seem to budget into my time.
On a separate note - I also feel like I'm frozen in time, waiting for the universities to get back to me. Its horrifying - I can't make plans for the following year now (For example - if I don't get in, I'll most probably do an MBA. Which means I'll have to study for the entrance tests - different colleges {I don't use the word unis here for a good reason} have different admissions tests so I'll have to figure out which one I want to do) and so right now I feel all I can do is wait.
Its also been a while since I've grown or developed. I haven't learnt anything new over the past couple of months. Yes, the lectures are nice, but I haven't learnt a new SKILL. That's where I feel I'm lacking. Knowledge is something that I've been collecting, but SKILLS is something I've neglected.
I know I'd like to upgrade my computer literacy - especially in the more advanced functions of Excel, Word, PowerPoint - which includes macro and VBA programming. And being in India I should be surrounded by such courses, right? Mmm....nothing close to where I live or work unfortunately :S
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